Saturday, November 17, 2007
i want to become an orang laut and live in a small beautiful island and just fish and fish..the sea will looks blue even as it gets dark..the sand will be as white as u could ever imagine and it will be so soft that u dunt even realise its sand..i want to swim into the deep sea and catch crabs..clams and other sea creatures..i will have a small boat made of simple wood that is strong enough to travel through the currents..i want to live in a kelong near the sea and take my morning baths near the river..i want to see the sunrise and the sunset every single day and breathe the nice cool air of the sea breeze..i just want to live for myself..finding food and comfort for myself..there is nothing to worry about except the fact that u have to live for urself..i want to sit by my balcony in my kelong and just strum the strings of the guitar to a lovely tune..i want to swing sideways in my hammock tied against two huge coconut trees and fell aslp as i sway side to side with the soft sea breeze calming me..just relaxing..all by myself..
oh oh! fadhil will become the farmer and he will just rear chickens and plant crops in a small pot of land nt far frm the beach..he will have small goats and other domestic animals..every morning he can take his time to pluck the fruits and crops that are meant for todays and tomorrows meals..he can eat chickens in alternate daes and maybe other poultry and just live day by day wit that..he will live in a small but cozy hut wit yes, a hammock tied up between two strong coconut trees..he will have nothing to worry about except the fact that he have to live for himself..he can go hunting in the woods just for fun and mabe will have a feast on wadeva he could hunt..oh! and the orang laut and the farmer can work together..we can make our meals together..i can eat his chickens and rice and he can have my fish and crabs and other seafoods..we can sit by the fire and play our guitars all nite long..
we don't have to worry about money..our education..our future..whether we succeed or fail in life..it doesnt matter.. as all u worry is living life by urself :)
10:20 PM
turned a page
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right now im just listnening to peterpan's new song "di balik awan". catchy tune..
this whole week has been realli shitty for me..literally lah..haha..coz i had diarrhea..and i always hungry but no appetite..i have to avoid milk stuff as during that period of time im, lets say lactose intolerent, where i cant reali digest stuff with lactose such as milk..so most of the time i just drank lots and lots of H2O (as in the isotonic drink..not that i wan to be in a scientfic term here..lol) to replace all my lost body fluids..and i only eat bread or easy to digest foods..lol..
well it did helped..im starting to release HARD SOLID SHIT..haha!
i guess it all started wit the seafood that i ate at the steamboat..mabe dinch cook properly or it wasnt fresh..got to admit me,isa and fitri ate lots of seafood compare to the others..so yeah tts y we kena lah..hahas..and all the way me and fitri were giveing each other advices what to eat and not to eat as if we are some diarrhea expert..lol
ok enuff of those crap..haha
had my very first class test for this sem..it was a maths test in the lecture..well i did studied for it but ended up coying since it was an open book test..haha..our tutor showed us the answers during tutorial this week and i got pretty much all of them rite..haha..i still have issues wit the other modules lah..somehow i don't realli feel like studying them..i keep asking if all these is necessary? why is it so hard to just focus and study them? and why cant i understand whats it all about? maybe im just not in the mood to do anything all this while..i just want to find something that i love doing..
safwan once asked me is there any future when we graduate as engineers..and i told him the oppurtunities that an engineer could get outside..but then it keeps coming back to me..even if there are oppurtunities..is this realli what i love doing?
and im still finding it.
"And the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work and the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you havent found it yet, keep looking and don't settle. As all matters of the heart you will know when u find it. And like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking. Don't settle.."
- Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple and Pixar Animations.
3:33 PM
turned a page
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Last thursday was our last game for the hockey POL-ITE tournament..we are champs again! yay! go NYP! haha..
hahas actually i stole the first pic frm our teams blog as i dunt realli have the pics yet except for my own medal wic i also stole frm WonderQuacks blog..haha..so il upload more of the pics once i got them :)
4:38 AM
turned a page
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Wednesday, November 14, 2007
its not alright, i'm not ok. But i still think god can explain.
11:00 PM
turned a page
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